Get some rest

Dear Soulseeker,

The sense of fatigue was like a weighted blanket on me this morning. I woke up but not the way I normally do. I am by no means a morning person, but on a day off, I usually feel rested and ready to go for a morning run. Not today. Today I sat for an hour with my coffee scrolling through my phone. I never do this. At least not for an hour or more. But today it was a mind numbing escape from dealing with the rest of the world.

The fatigue had been building all week. It was one thing after another this week at school, and my students are challenging this year. On Friday, I knew it would be over. I had a massage scheduled at 4:45 and then I was going home to sit and watch junk on tv with a glass of wine, or two. The house all to myself for several hours. Bliss!

As I drove home from my massage, all I could think about was how good it was going to feel to sit and unwind. But….you knew this was coming didn’t you? As I walk in the door, my husband, all freshly showered and clean from a day off, is getting dressed in “date night” clothes and says “I thought we’d go out to eat”. Sigh.

As for today, I have things to do. I managed to accomplish # 1 and #2 items on my list, then I called it quits. My body is telling me that today I need to take care of myself, and everything else that seems important can wait. I laid back down on my bed, read some of my current book, and talked to some family members that are going through some tough times. It has been restorative and healing. Yes, my inner voice is screaming at me that I should be up doing something, “Quit being lazy! At least throw in a load of laundry!”. But that inner voice is going to have to be quiet. I am doing what I need to do. I need rest.

We have to remember that it’s OK to be tired, admit that we are tired and to sink into that fatigue. This is our body’s way of telling us that we need rest. We need calm, and we need escape from the noise of our lives. Laundry will wait. Order your groceries online. Sit down and read a book or binge on your favorite Netflix series. There is nothing wrong with rest, taking time for yourself or being lazy for an afternoon. It is good for you. And tomorrow, I know I will feel better and be ready to face another week. My body will thank me, my family will thank me, and my students will thank me. Actually they were probably the first to notice that I needed some down time. As they told me on Friday, “You’ve been in a mood, Miss”.

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